Pain, Pain, Go Away...
The pain was getting to me last night. I cried out to Allah to relief the pain, to make it go away.
For these past few years, I've been taking care of myself. I refused to have anyone beside me. When I underwent the appendicitis operation, I took a cab to SGH, only to find that there wasn't any beds for me. They referred me to AH, where Dr. Tan met me in the middle of the night. Many people were surprised that I was alone. After the op, I took a cab home myself.
Similarly for the circumcision. I did not tell anyone until before I went for the minor op. I took a bus home after it. I rested for a bit, trying to get used to the bandange wrapped around my dick. I was up, out and running the next day.
Yesterday, Su's friends were all so concerned. Su called a few of her friends to ask for advices. I spoke to JJ. He did give some advice, and he was adament that I should not be moving about. I praise Allah for giving me such kind friends.
Last night, I needed some nice words. I imagined my mother brushing my hair while I was lying down, telling me to go to sleep, and that the pain would go away. I remember when my older brother had his circumcision, there were always people around him, and somehow treated him like a big deal. It's not wrong I guess. Anyone in pain should have some form of consolation, especially when it is a voluntery operation for whatever purpose, be it religious or for personal well-being.
I was all alone and I hated it. I hate being alone. I really do. People say that I've been travelling all my myself for the past 7 years. But eversince I've been back, I've gotten so used to surrounding myself with people. I made aqquaintances. People I do not really care about, but at least they gave me some entertainment value after work. And I had lots of these.
I've been so used to being around Su for the past 11 months. I do feel weird whenever she's not around. I love her, but it's another depth of emotion. I can't seem to explain it.
I hope that the pain would subside soon. I'm starting work with Kimberly-Clark on monday. Insya Allah, the minyak gamat would work miracles for me. I've used close to half the bottle already since Su passed it to me last night. It's noon now.
jahwsl
1229
02 Dec 06'
For these past few years, I've been taking care of myself. I refused to have anyone beside me. When I underwent the appendicitis operation, I took a cab to SGH, only to find that there wasn't any beds for me. They referred me to AH, where Dr. Tan met me in the middle of the night. Many people were surprised that I was alone. After the op, I took a cab home myself.
Similarly for the circumcision. I did not tell anyone until before I went for the minor op. I took a bus home after it. I rested for a bit, trying to get used to the bandange wrapped around my dick. I was up, out and running the next day.
Yesterday, Su's friends were all so concerned. Su called a few of her friends to ask for advices. I spoke to JJ. He did give some advice, and he was adament that I should not be moving about. I praise Allah for giving me such kind friends.
Last night, I needed some nice words. I imagined my mother brushing my hair while I was lying down, telling me to go to sleep, and that the pain would go away. I remember when my older brother had his circumcision, there were always people around him, and somehow treated him like a big deal. It's not wrong I guess. Anyone in pain should have some form of consolation, especially when it is a voluntery operation for whatever purpose, be it religious or for personal well-being.
I was all alone and I hated it. I hate being alone. I really do. People say that I've been travelling all my myself for the past 7 years. But eversince I've been back, I've gotten so used to surrounding myself with people. I made aqquaintances. People I do not really care about, but at least they gave me some entertainment value after work. And I had lots of these.
I've been so used to being around Su for the past 11 months. I do feel weird whenever she's not around. I love her, but it's another depth of emotion. I can't seem to explain it.
I hope that the pain would subside soon. I'm starting work with Kimberly-Clark on monday. Insya Allah, the minyak gamat would work miracles for me. I've used close to half the bottle already since Su passed it to me last night. It's noon now.
jahwsl
1229
02 Dec 06'
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