Clocks

An ex emailed me today. Funny how I still receive such notes. People seem to think I'm kidding when I mention I'm getting married, Insya Allah, soon. For many, it doesn't come across as real that a person like me could settle down, let alone make the decision soon after I met Su. For others, they don't seem to be able to take no for an answer. I refuse to go on dates or meets. I have closed this door behind me and Insya Allah, I'll not be tempted to.

Sometimes when I receive these messages or mail, I somehow forgot how the person writing looks like. Doesn't matter. As long as I know how my baby looks like... I've never loved them. They were there when they were there. Convenient. Nothing more, nothing less. I could hardly hold a conversation, not to mention an intellectual one. Topics was usually gossips at their workplace, their lives, etc. It's all right if it's for a bit. But daily, anyone would get bored.

Incidentally, I think that Su's mother was hoping we would send one of our kids to a madrasha. It's not that we don't wanna, it's just that the chances of my kid getting the exposure I got would probably not even exist. So what if they are learning circular subjects. I would still prefer my child to excel in an all rounded education as opposed to a religious one... in the beginning. If he or she would like to be educated in a religious school for high school studies, then I would be fully supportive. Nothing would please a parent more, Insya Allah. But before that, I would like for them to have a choice in the institution of my ala matar.

Sunnat Hajat is probably the best thing that's ever happened to me. I cry when I pray. What is it about me that Allah would wanna take me in as His Own? Insya Allah, I'll continue to have the faith strong in me. Su's so cute! She was so kind to send me "instructions":
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salam dear..

sorry didnt pick up the phone earlier on. i was wearing my clothes! heheh

anyways.. i refered to my book and here are the 2 sunat prayers which u could do at
night to ask for anything u want.

rules :

1. this prayer is to be done late at night. preferably after midnight.

2. this prayer can be done during any month not only Ramadhan.

A. SUNAT HAJAT PRAYERS

1. niat : i partake sunat hajat prayers 2 rakaat for the sake of Allah.

2. pray as usual.

3. When u finish praying, recite the Al Fatiha and then ask for anything u want.

4. to end recite 'Allahuma swali ala Muhammad'

hope this is useful..

Suraya
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Insya Allah, I'll continue to have the strength to do what is necessary to be a good
muslim and a husband. Sorry to all if my thoughts seems not to be in order. Been a
long week, and things are gonna get busier before they let up. Or, you could click
on the "x" on the top right hand of your screen and be put out of your misery.

jahwsl
17 Jan 07'
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