Homogenous vs Ceramic

It's funny how how Su & I became a couple. Unlike most of the people I go out with, she didn't have a very good first 6 seconds of an impression out of me. In fact, she didn't like me one bit.

Our relationship grew by leaps & bounds each time we met, at least for me anyway... soon, being apart for more than a day would tear me up.

We met online, through a dating site. we chatted for a bit. I was impressed with her work-travel experiences. To be away from home, alone, in a foreign land, would scare most men that I know. I did think to myself that this girl was different. Most of the women I've met would always say how much they wish to be able to travel alone and explore. Well... how difficult can it be? Buy a ticket and bring along your passport! And most girls who tell me that they're adventurous can't hack a mili-second to Su and what she's accomplished in these short couple of years.

Many of Su's friends were worried about how she reacts (or doesn't react) whenever I am displeased with something. She's a tough kid. She's been independent for a long time before she's met me. To her friends, she's never a wall-flower. With me though, it's as if I am too dominant. I cannot say that all those fears from her friends were unfounded. I can only say I am learning to be in a relationship with someone as special as Su. I am happy that she has good friends.

Our habits and lifestlye is as different as day and night. As she is never the neat freak that I am, I can never be as optimistic as her, or so it seems. And it is with these differences that I continously learn so much from her.

I am grateful for the chance in a lifetime to have met her. Many people do not have this bond that we share. They may be a couple, married, etc. But I know for a fact that they will never possess what we have. And it is not something anyone can take away. Since in this relationship, I've never felt the need to speak to someone when I need to get a load of my chest. Su's always there for me. Granted, many times she does not see what I mean, it's the value of the want to listen and try make the other party feel better that counts.

I've been around. I've met people. Unfortunately, it has always been my impression that most girls, outwardly, want to be led in a relationship. Well enough said. But how can one be expected to follow when a strong opinion already is formed? Communication, communication and communication is needed. It may be a simple enough thing to say. But both Su & I can assure you that it is not. Ahamdulilah! Su has seen me at my worst during the initial stages of Ramadan. Insya Allah I will be a better boyfriend, and husband to her. I don't really care about being the good father part. To me, Su is the most important thing to me.

I've seen couples who's attention center around their child. I think this is so so wrong. I married Su not so that I can spend time and love my child more. Insya Allah, if we do get married, I want to pamper and love Su that she deserves. Always more, nothing less. I dare not say that the things I've done in this relationship is by any standard special. But I will try. Insya Allah, I will have the strength.

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

How then, can I prove my words? I don't know. But one thing I know I can prove. It's to be a better person. Since I've been shown the meaning of life (yup... for all of you who wanna know it... be prepared to accept the truth), I've been taking things alot more easier. Ahamdulilah! But that don't mean I don't work hard for what I want. Like I said, my wife takes precedence over everything else.

Just remembered this. A man and woman can only pray together, without a screen across from them when they are married, or well, if they're off-springs. Su & I pray together often. Why? Because I like it. I love her to be around me when we pray. It feels nice. And I feel special. Yes, it may not be accepted protocol, but it's something that drives me linger and harder to pray and be close to Him. Therefore, is it not a virtue for us to pray together? The norms are challenged. And one day, we may be questioned. But we build our relationship on a rock solid, religious foundation. I strongly believe that all relationships, be it courtship, family, friends... with religion and mutual respect, then can only the relationship withstand the test of time, people and satan (by the way... I'll still kick your fucking booty).

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04 Nov