Play Dough

Ahamdulilah! I finally had the courage to ask Su to marry me today! Well, actually... even though we both did speak of marriage, I guess these few weeks after Ramadan has created such an experience for me that I realised how much I want to be with her.

During these times, she was patient with me. Extremely patient. She would give in to my tantrums, cajole me and sometimes plain ignore me (which actually does the trick most of the times).

I love her. As with most couples, we have our own pet names. She calls me "dada" and I call her a variety of names. See the card? She's so cute! I was working one day downstairs in CG. She was upstairs. She drew up this card, punched a hole through it, tied it to a string and dangled down from the second level to my bedroom window! See the top left corner of the card? I yanked it from the string! Isn't is just so sweet?! I just love the child-like qualities in her! Ahamdulilah! Oh... my good friend Ah Ho (Su doesn't know what to call him since he's her parents age, calls him Mr. Ho. And whenever she does that, he doesn't respond. Probably because no one calls him that!), came into my room one day while we were supposed to have dinner at Adam Road Food Centre, saw the card (I pasted it on the wall) and asked: "What is a "dada"?"

Why I fell in love with her. In all honesty, "msn-ing" her initially was fine. We did meet online to begin with. Seeing her for the first time, and listening to her experiences, volunteering overseas, teaching, somehow impressed me more than I would any other person. She's done things most men I know wouldn't, ie, get out of their comfort zone and go to a foreign land that they've never been before. I am more impressed with people who's been and stayed in third world countries than those who've stayed in far more developed countries for long periods of time. Don't worry if you are one of those types. I don't think any less of you. I couldn't be bothered in the first place. Just don't tell me how hard you've had it.

Her attributes of kindness are so apparent. How she takes care of her dad, cleans up after him. This really tugged my heart-strings (for those of you who still think my heart's made of stone, you're not too far off. But it really depends on who). Is there a wonder why I want her dad to move in with us, if Insya Allah, we find a place of our own soon? It's down-right inspiring.

Her love for animals. My prayers for an animal lover has come through! Ahamdulilah! Can't wait to pick up our first cat from SPCA! Yeah!!!

She is the most beautiful girl I've set my eyes on. I swear! Each time she smiles, she makes me go weak. Sometimes I've to keep telling myself I'm the man, and I shouldn't go all mushy. She has great hands to hold, a nice waist to hug, and nice cheeks to kiss.

Remember I written about us going for counselling? Well, Praveen, the counsellor asked if we were intimate. We both said "yes". Truth is, we do kiss. We do hug. What we found out later that his question meant was whether we had sex. Ahamdulilah! We both do not believe in pre-marital sex. Yes, it's tough to abstain, but Ahamdulilah! We managed to. I think it could be because we both enjoy, in her words "intellectual intercourse". We can talk and chat for hours on end. Sometimes mindless chatter, sometimes teaching and sharing with each other. I've never spoke to anyone as much as I've spoken to her. She could be right to say that I do not make friends. I people manage. Insya Allah, I'll behave like a good & proper muslim. These days, I extend my hand out to everyone, as most people embrace a new brother like me to their family. Ahamdulilah!

Her sense of humor could be obtuse... depending on how you look at it. It's really weird that sometimes we can just laugh over the slightest thing. Ahamdulilah! But she does get on my nerves... sometimes... as much as I get on her's. Ahamdulilah, she's been extremely patient with me. Very very patient! Ahamdulilah! Insya Allah, I'll learn how to communicate more effectively with her! Please help me!

And just this afternoon (or rather yesterday afternoon), the funny thing was she asked me why I wanted to marry her now. Well, because I want the REAL courtship to begin! Remember I said this:

I don't believe in courtship;
I think it's a waste of time;
But for you, I'll make an exception;
Just tell me you love me now;
And I'll court you forever!

No one should be neglected after marriage. We see attention being diverted to the child once they're born. I never want that to happen. I embrace a differnt philosophy towards marriage. Su will always be my pride and joy. The focus of my attention. Insya Allah!

I've always wanted to build a family based on the foundation of religion. Many of the people I met are religious to a certain extent. They go to church without fail. They attend bible classes, etc, etc. What really attracted me to Su was her devotion to the God that she is devoted to. Many times, when we initially went out, she would suddenly just tell me that she needs to pray and lead me to a mosque. Of course she's polite. But she's firm as well. I was always facinated by this God of hers. Ahamdulilah! She's lead me to Him! Ahamdulilah!

Insya Allah, I strive to build our family on this foundation of submission to His Will of Peace! Insya Allah, we will all experience all of His Goodness! Ya Allah! For my dedicated readers, forgive me should today's entry be short. I am overwhelmed with so much joy! Ahamdulilah! Even though I am busy as a bumble bee with lots of things on my mind, Ahamdulilah! He has given me rest through these events! Insya Allah, Su will not change her mind anytime soon! We all know how easily bored she can get!

Amin!

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09 Nov 06'