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This picture was taken inn NUH, on night Ya'akub passed away. Su's in her white sweat shirt, and me... well, what other clothes do I have?

It's so sweet that in trying times, we could still snap a picture to remember what we went through. Ya'akub, Insya Allah, did not die in vain.

I cannot speak for the rest, but Su & I miss him a great deal. Alhamdulliah, we remember alot of the good times we spent together walking him, massaging him, and well, just fooling around with him. He fooled around with us as well!

Till today, I can still see him brushing his hair back - vain pot! I can still hear him complaining about his maid - speaking in a sporadic fire of perfect english, "this woman, she's crazy!". I can feel the vibration of his laugh whenever we joke. Insya Allah, he is in a better place.

He has suffered so much in his life. Granted we all make mistakes in our lives, why is it then, so difficult to forgive a person. I forgive him for all he's done, and Insya Allah, he'll not take my short-comings too hard.

In the past 3 weeks, I did ask myself if I'm marrying Su because of her dad, that I pity this poor girl, for she is all alone now. Her own family bullies her. I want to care for her so badly. But is this love? Or is it the strong sense of obligation that I feel towards her because Ya'akub's dead now?

Alhamdulliah! With each passing day, I think it's more than love. It's more than obligation. I can't seem to explain it, but the passion still grows.

With her, I've always to remind myself to be patient, to be caring, etc. It was so hard in the beginning. Insya Allah, it'll be easier for me. Today, Alhamdulliah! It's been not so much of a challenge.

What makes Su so special from the other girls I've dated? One thing for sure, is her sincerity. She once asked,"Do you expect anything in return for treating me well?". I said no. After sometime, she told me,"You expect me to treat you the same way you treat me, isn't that an expectation?". Dumbfounded as I was, I told her it was not an expectation. Rather, it's reciprocating the act. But looking back, an expectation is an expectation. No matter how you slice it.

She's the only girl I've dated who's also been brave enough to tell me off. She knows what she wants. And I respect her for that. Going up against me is no easy feat. Alhamdulliah for such a wonderful gal!

Dear Allah, Thank You for the many blessings You have bestowed on me. I ask that You continue to give me all the good virtues of a husband to lead my wife and family. Only You can do that, and I seek Your Mercy to help me O Allah!

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26 Feb 07'