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Everything I was angry about was mentioned in all three weeks of marriage prep course. Finally completed a legislated three week doctrine on how to waste your precious sundays. Legislated because of the insecurity of many. Stats on broken marriages remain unchanged though.
We had a counselling session yesterday. I honestly did not feel that I had a need to be there. I know it was going to be me settling her issues. Her issues alone. Twice I tried to walk out and twice she blocked the door and screamed and shouted. Why can't I leave? I am unhappy in this relationship. I've decisions to make and I've choices availiable. I am equipped with the knowledge and sense to be mindful of my decisions.
The past month has been extremely trying for the both of us. She does not see the need to pull up her socks. She thinks that my requests to do certain things are jokes that do not carry any weight. She feel that trying to decide the color scheme of the house, layout, etc, is something that can afford to wait till we get the keys, despite my insistence on wanting to be able to know what we want first as opposed to cramping everything in the last minute. I want to move in as soon as I can. She doesn't see the need to decide or suggest. She sees no urgency nor importance in that. I am unable to accept that. Just tell me you do not want to do it, instead of saying that it's our house and we should make a decision together. I agree. We should make decisions together. But I need help in making those decisions.
It irritates me when someone talks about the things they plan to do for months and do not get their feet down to anything. Not even a small attempt to show for anything.
My request was to get married as soon as possible. That request was made in December. She wants it in April. So that all her relatives can join in. Ok. Have it your way.
The wedding's off. I've decided that she needs to prove herself to me. I've been the one giving till it hurts. I'm giving her all my money, time, effort and a host of other goodies. I'll be better off giving them to someone who cares. There're a couple of girls who've shown a little interest in me. And I'm deciding to give them all a shot of being Mrs. Wong. Obviously Su doesn't want the title that badly.
jahwsl
1623
21 Jan 07'
We had a counselling session yesterday. I honestly did not feel that I had a need to be there. I know it was going to be me settling her issues. Her issues alone. Twice I tried to walk out and twice she blocked the door and screamed and shouted. Why can't I leave? I am unhappy in this relationship. I've decisions to make and I've choices availiable. I am equipped with the knowledge and sense to be mindful of my decisions.
The past month has been extremely trying for the both of us. She does not see the need to pull up her socks. She thinks that my requests to do certain things are jokes that do not carry any weight. She feel that trying to decide the color scheme of the house, layout, etc, is something that can afford to wait till we get the keys, despite my insistence on wanting to be able to know what we want first as opposed to cramping everything in the last minute. I want to move in as soon as I can. She doesn't see the need to decide or suggest. She sees no urgency nor importance in that. I am unable to accept that. Just tell me you do not want to do it, instead of saying that it's our house and we should make a decision together. I agree. We should make decisions together. But I need help in making those decisions.
It irritates me when someone talks about the things they plan to do for months and do not get their feet down to anything. Not even a small attempt to show for anything.
My request was to get married as soon as possible. That request was made in December. She wants it in April. So that all her relatives can join in. Ok. Have it your way.
The wedding's off. I've decided that she needs to prove herself to me. I've been the one giving till it hurts. I'm giving her all my money, time, effort and a host of other goodies. I'll be better off giving them to someone who cares. There're a couple of girls who've shown a little interest in me. And I'm deciding to give them all a shot of being Mrs. Wong. Obviously Su doesn't want the title that badly.
jahwsl
1623
21 Jan 07'
posted by Jeremy Amir Hamzah Wong Sheh Liang | 4:10 pm
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